Fear

I know I said my next blog was going to be about the party for my mom, but I thought a change of subject was in order. I will start with the party though. It is becoming a monster. My dad has an idea of what he wants and I had my idea. I wanted to do a pretty party, with roses and my moms favorite color. My dad wants a black "Over the Hill" party. Since he is paying for it I am doing as he wishes. I just wish he would tell me all at once what he would like for the thing not after I start making plans then I have to change them. The cake is the new issue. The woman who usually bakes the cakes for our parties is going to be out of town that weekend. This has left me scouring the city for something I like. I was going to do the Wal-Mar, Kroger, Meijer route but my dad was thinking bakeries and cake sampling. We are working on it. Not much time left but it will get done. Onto my next subject. Fear.

Have you ever been truly afraid? I know most people like scary movies, haunted houses and things of that nature to frighten them for entertainment purposes. I am talking about being scared by life, someone or something that is real. The movies and such we know are fiction and although it is frightening in the back of our minds we understand it is not real. I have my fear like everyone else. Fear of failure, rejection, snakes,you know the normal stuff. Right now I am beyond scared. I am lost. I know many have no idea what I am talking about. It is one of those things that you keep to yourself and do not share. I am lost and I am afraid for the most precious gift any of us can have. Life.